It's been 10 months since I started my blog, and approx. 7 since I stopped updating it. I had a bad couple of weeks, and felt I'd be letting everyone and myself down by trying to talk about being healthy. After that, it just became too long, and I didn't know if I could come back to it. I still thought about this little thing all the time- I enjoyed updating it, even the posts which 1 or 2 people read.
I really liked being able to set my weekly thoughts jotted down, and organise them, and it made me feel clarity I didn't know was possible. I'm glad to be picking this up again, and hope to update at least once a week. I will try for more often and will make them all waaaaay more fun than this post will be.
I've learned a lot about myself over the past 10 months; some good, some not so good.
Good:
- If I put my mind to it, I can lose weight (At my lightest, I'd lost 3st 5lbs since 6th January 2014)
- I can run 10km in 73 minutes- and have no doubt I can do it faster.
- I can run 5km in 29 minutes- and have no doublt I can do it faster.
- I can sort, I can clarify, I can improve.
Bad
- Failing to plan leads to me stressing out, giving up, and feeling miserable
- I am not/ was not prepared for injuries
- I can eat a whole sharing bag of handcooked crisps in one evening
- I can worry, I can exaggerate, I can put pressure on myself.
The only time I feel good is with a plan. And that's why I've started work on '2015' already. MY YEAR. I'm going to learn from my mistakes over the past 12 months and I'm going to take examples of mine (and friends'- many of the people around me are doing so great with getting fit and losing weight, I'm so proud!!) triumphs to keep me motivated.
In fact, by the end of 2015, I want to be at my initial target weight.
*DRUMROLL*
11st 7lbs.
A total of 8 stone (50kg) lost (since I started counting, anyway) over approx 30 months
2 stone 3lbs to go. (Let's see what I weigh on 1st Jan, I don't intend to put on weight before then but if the last few weeks are anything to go by....)
I Can't wait.
I have plans, I have actions, I have goals, I have time, I have a fucking great year ahead of me.
Watch this space.
P.s I am fully aware that it is October, and I shouldn't be planning from January. I am going to do something to sort out the next couple of months, but right now, I'm avoiding everything that happens in the next few weeks because I'm to scared to deal with the fact that I'm going to Cameroon and I have no plan to fall back on.
